I have found the most amazing present ever!! It's for Tina, who's birthday is on Wednesday. She'll be 23 and practically in the denture cream. Just Jessin'! ~_^. Anyways, I'm really looking forward to Wednesday night, she'll be having her birthday dinner and we'll all get to celebrate. And I can giver her the present!!!
So I've recently participated in two swaps that have sent out and am in two more for which I'm still crafting. The first swap was a Twilight: Longing for New Moon swap, my partner was Pinkleo. She did an amazing job!! I received such a great package from her! There was so much good stuff in it!! I think my favorite would be the Bella hat she knitted for me, or the Meadow bracelet, lol or the werewolf kibble! ^_^.
I also received two presents from the August birthday swap!! I got a hardcore bag from MareMare and two fabulous bars of cp soap. And from Crosswinds, I received an abundance of goodies! She sent me three headbands, earrings, a necklace, candy and a cute birthday card!
I have been very lucky!
I also sent out two packages, one for the NM swap and the second for the birthday swap. Unfortunately, my envelope was lost in the mail or something so Becca hasn't received yet. I'm sending again.
Ahhhh life. It seems as though you wait and wait for things to happen, then you wait some more. But once you have those things you are waiting for something new!
I suppose it all seems more dreary and bleak on blah days, horrid and unacceptable on bad days and ridiculously amazing (why did I even worry?) on good days.
I have been in a period of blah days dotted infrequently with horrible, shoot myself in the shin, throw a vase against the wall and scream bad days. Those seem to resonate more than do the good days, when something happens and I can't stop the smile from radiating from my face. And those moments spent remembering the intense happiness often lead to the, what seems to be inevitable, slump back into the pit of desolation and the feeling of alone-ness.
I continually remember little things about that time of joy, a small laugh shared, a kiss or touch, some compliment given unexpectedly and I feel light, the smile breaks out and I revel in the feelings.
Unfortunately, I then remind myself that I am not there now and will not be again. I wonder why I torture myself with wallowing in the sadness. The loss of those moments yet again. And can only say that I have been this way for so long that to break the habit will take time, so much effort and the will to make the change.
Two of my best friends just got married this week (Monday) in Vegas. David and Tina had family and friends with them as they partied down the strip, caught the Cirque de Soleil "Love" show and exchanged vows on Monday at Caesar's Palace!
I wish them the best in all that they do and know that they'll be so happy together.
The gorgeous bride and her dorky husband. (David you're beautiful)
My Twizzle turns 21 today!!!! She is in Wyoming (Unfortunately I am unable to accompany her) with her bf Peter and her fam. She will be partying down on her birthday at the kegger her mother has planned for her, that's right kegger.
I wish I could be there!! I hope she has SO much fun and SO much to drink. Hee Hee. It's not 21 if you don't puke! lol.